…then comes the baby in the baby carriage!
Life is filled with happy little miracles. After nearly 20 years of doctor’s telling me I could not have children I got the surprise of a lifetime; I’m pregnant! My husband and I, as well as our families, are elated!
What does this mean for me as a wedding planner? Well, now I have a lot of “other” things to plan for! I am excited, and little bit daunted, for all of the upcoming events. Baby shower, photography sessions, decorating a nursery, home remodeling before the baby arrives (and before I’m too huge to help!), as well as planning for the arrival of our little bun.
Why now I wonder? After many years and tears, praying that the doctors were wrong and trying anyway. I truly believe it was because last year I had made amends with a past that haunted me as well as fully embracing and being grateful for what was gifted to me.
God may not have blessed me with a child of my own but I was blessed with two beautiful step daughters (and two grandchildren!) whom I love with my full being. I truly think if I had had children of my own prior to my marriage it wouldn’t have worked out, I also would not have been emotionally available for them as much as I was able to be. I was able to devote all of me to them. Later in our marriage one of my step daughters became pregnant.
At the time I did cry, I felt jealous as well as shame of my jealousy. I was able to fully face those emotions and prepare for my granddaughters birth. She is now the apple of my eye, and I am very much a doting grandmother even at the young age of 35. Now I also have a grandson, he just arrived January 5th of this year, 2019. I am known to show off my grands to anyone who will pay attention long enough. I realized at some point last year that if I had children before my step daughter that I would not have been able to be as supportive or receptive as I have been. I would have been full of “advice” and telling her how it “should” be done. It’s been a gift watching her learn and grow as a young woman and mother.
So all that being said, I was at peace and truly grateful for the family I have. I guess I just had a few things to accomplish before receiving one of the greatest blessings of my life. I look forward to meeting my little one later this summer! Expect to be flooded with adorable pictures of the many events to follow!